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Diary of Hell
Diary of Hell
Michelle Molina
Oct 8, 2009
"God will neither expect nor desire his blessing
without exertion; for
it has always been God's way to crown only those that
run the race that is
set before them, and fight the good fight of faith." ~
William Jay
1769-1853
DIARY OF HELL
Day 1
This has to be a mistake but I don't know where to
go for help. I am
not supposed to be here. Hell was not my destiny. It is
all a mistake.
I'm a good person. I've never hurt anyone. I've been
a member of my
church for as long as I can remember. I tithed and
helped build the
recreation center. I even taught Vacation Bible School
the summer the
regular teacher was ill. How can I, of all people, be in
this place?
I can't get tired. I want to go to sleep to escape this
for a little
while. If sleep were even possible here, I think the
screams would keep me
awake.
I wish the screaming would stop.
The pain is too much to bear. I've never known fear
like this. I
thought the bad times I had on earth without peace
were like Hell, but I was
wrong. The complete absence of the presence of God is
more than
unbearable.it is Hell.
Day 2
A man came in today that was screaming that it was
a mistake. He
sounded like me yesterday. He was a deacon or an
elder or something like
that. Someone must be messing up bad somewhere to
send us here.
I wish the screaming would stop.
My tongue feels like I ate dust mixed with hot sauce.
It's dry and on
fire. There's no water here. I am told this feeling is
normal but is unable
to be quenched. How is this possible?
People filter in all day. Sometimes a lot, sometimes
a trickle, but
they are always coming.
I wish the screaming would stop.
Day 3
Or at least I think this is the third day. I have no
sense of time
here. I saw Hitler and asked him what day this was. He
screamed this was his
third day. How is that possible? He has been dead for
over fifty years? How
can he think it is his third day? Perhaps there is no time
here. I will
continue to amuse myself with this diary until I am
called to heaven.I know
it has to happen.
I wish the screaming would stop.
I helped the Mission's Department raise money. I did
anything that was
asked of me. Sure, I had some vices, but who doesn't? I
cheated on my income
taxes sometimes, but the government had it coming.
They take too much from
us hard workers! Then I peeked at a little pornography
every now and then.
Surely Jesus would understand. He is a very loving God
and the good I do
must outweigh the bad.
I remember that evangelist that came to our church!
Whew! He spoke on
the damnation of our souls.like that could happen to
any good person. He
said God would never send anyone to Hell. I even
"Amened" him on that point.
Then he said that only we, individually, could do that by
refusing to
repent. A bit heavy on that "holiness stuff" considering
we live in the 21st
century. We are an advanced and intellectual people.
We don't worship idols
of stone, so what could God really care if we give Him
our time on Sundays
and some Wednesdays and live the rest of the time
taking care of ourselves?
Is that really bad? I think not.
I wish the screaming would stop.
Too many people are screaming and I can't think
anymore.
Day 4
Or so I think. At least it makes me feel better to
make these day
breaks for myself.
Wait.there is a pull drawing me upward! Yes! I knew I
would get out of
here. Finally. Someone realized their mistake. This is
the first time in
what seems like an eternity that I am not in pain. I feel
peace again. God
must be near. There is light all around. And a throne.so
big and shining
white. The singing is so beautiful!
I still hear that screaming.
My name is called. God must want to apologize for
this horrible
mistake. I walk up to Him. Should I bow?
I cannot look at His eyes. They are like blue-white
flames of fire.
Beautiful, but so much purity there. Can anyone look at
those eyes and not
feel dread?
I look down and feel such shame. My clothes are so
dirty. Perhaps it
was that awful place I just came from that has done
this. I see those on the
other side of the vast room we are in. Their clothes,
robes really, are so
beautiful. They look white, but not like any white I have
ever seen. Almost
iridescent - they shimmer like diamonds in the sun. The
sheer beauty of
those robes has me captivated. Until I hear His voice.
He calls my name.
I try to look up, but again can't. Suddenly, my life
flashes through
me and I know that God is seeing this scene play out as
well. It is the time
I slandered that man of God who made me so mad. I just
couldn't help myself.
I hear again the words I spoke that day. The judgments
I pronounced.
Next were the days at work and the adult magazines
I would sneak a
peek at.
Then came the way I looked at some people, with
very lustful thoughts.
Who could blame me after seeing those pictures? Was
the Bible serious about
that "looking to lust being the same as doing it"
scripture? Surely not in
our day and age!
Then came the altar calls. There were a lot of those.
All those
preachers pleading with those with hidden sin in their
lives to come and
repent, to turn away from those things that were
separating us from Christ
and start over with Him. There were a lot of those. I saw
them all replayed.
I keep waiting, hoping that I am going to get up and
walk down there. In the
holiness of this room I now stand in, I know that my sin
needed to be
forgiven. But I know I am not going to get up. I never
did.
Frame after frame kept coming up. I tried to stop
it.make my mind see
or think of something else. But they all kept rolling. The
secrets, the
anger, the jealousy, the bitterness. What I thought was
acceptable in my
mortal life I now knew were as unacceptable as God
had always said they were
in His word. Why had I not listened?
Suddenly, fear gripped me again. I began to realize
that in Hell I had
never been in the wrong place. I had lived in deception.
I had believed that
a loving God would accept me, as I was, if I just lived
some of His ways. I
never killed with my hands...though now I knew I had
with my tongue and my
heart. I had never committed adultery with my body, but
I had many times in
my mind and in my heart. I had never verbally rejected
living life as His
child, but in my actions, I had left Him years ago.
I fall down on my face and cry out for mercy. Then
God spoke:
"I created you and had such wonderful plans for you.
Even as you
strayed, I continued to send messengers to you to call
you back to Me. I
wooed you through worship. I tugged at your heart in
your dreams. I called
you in your conscience day and night. But each time I
came, you rejected me.
You listened to the voice that said what you did was
good enough. But your
sin had separated us. You no longer felt my peace or my
conviction. You
blamed others for your struggles but never looked at
your heart.
"I looked at your heart everyday of your life. I
desired to cleanse
you and make you whole again. Restoring to you the joy
of the salvation you
left behind in order to live your way. Your church
attendance and good works
were done to appease the drawing, the conviction you
felt, but you would
never surrender to Me. Now it is too late."
I heard the pain in His voice. Can God cry? Did my
choices really do
this to Him. Hurt Him? Cause Him this much pain? Was it
the life I led or
what I dreaded He was about to say that made Him cry?
Or both?
"Depart from me.." It began to echo through the
room. Heaven had
fallen silent.
I heard the screams again. I felt the darkness
around me again.
Finally, I caught a reflection of the one who was
screaming so loudly.
It was me.
Living for the Call,
Michelle Molina
Through today's devotional, I ask you to search your
heart. Do you
need God to revive you; to cleanse from you any thing
that is staining your
soul? Is there secret sin in your life that you think you
will be able to
slip into heaven with - perhaps you think God will
overlook it considering
all the good you do? Sin is anything that Jesus would
not do - is there
anything in your life that falls into that category? Is your
conscience
replaying things to you now that needs to be under the
blood of Jesus?
1 John 1:9 says that if you will confess you sin, God
is faithful to
cover it under the blood and restore you. Confess and
turn from it. God
waits, in Heaven today, for your response. He is calling
you back to
Himself; back from lukewarm living that will condemn
your soul. He is
calling. How will you answer? Will you have a shining
white robe or will you
be recalling this very moment in heaven with regret?
Return to Him and be
made white again.
"Dear Father, I come to you today in the name of
your Son, Jesus
Christ. I stand in need of forgiveness. I have been living
in sin - living
for myself. I repent and turn away from that today.
Cleanse my soul and make
me pure again. Restore the joy of my salvation and
renew a right spirit
within me. I forsake the wickedness and will not turn to
it again. I am
sorry. I need you to be the Lord and Savior of my life.
Thank you for
cleansing me in the blood of Jesus. Amen."
Your sister in Christ,
Michelle
Michelle Molina
Oct 8, 2009
"God will neither expect nor desire his blessing
without exertion; for
it has always been God's way to crown only those that
run the race that is
set before them, and fight the good fight of faith." ~
William Jay
1769-1853
DIARY OF HELL
Day 1
This has to be a mistake but I don't know where to
go for help. I am
not supposed to be here. Hell was not my destiny. It is
all a mistake.
I'm a good person. I've never hurt anyone. I've been
a member of my
church for as long as I can remember. I tithed and
helped build the
recreation center. I even taught Vacation Bible School
the summer the
regular teacher was ill. How can I, of all people, be in
this place?
I can't get tired. I want to go to sleep to escape this
for a little
while. If sleep were even possible here, I think the
screams would keep me
awake.
I wish the screaming would stop.
The pain is too much to bear. I've never known fear
like this. I
thought the bad times I had on earth without peace
were like Hell, but I was
wrong. The complete absence of the presence of God is
more than
unbearable.it is Hell.
Day 2
A man came in today that was screaming that it was
a mistake. He
sounded like me yesterday. He was a deacon or an
elder or something like
that. Someone must be messing up bad somewhere to
send us here.
I wish the screaming would stop.
My tongue feels like I ate dust mixed with hot sauce.
It's dry and on
fire. There's no water here. I am told this feeling is
normal but is unable
to be quenched. How is this possible?
People filter in all day. Sometimes a lot, sometimes
a trickle, but
they are always coming.
I wish the screaming would stop.
Day 3
Or at least I think this is the third day. I have no
sense of time
here. I saw Hitler and asked him what day this was. He
screamed this was his
third day. How is that possible? He has been dead for
over fifty years? How
can he think it is his third day? Perhaps there is no time
here. I will
continue to amuse myself with this diary until I am
called to heaven.I know
it has to happen.
I wish the screaming would stop.
I helped the Mission's Department raise money. I did
anything that was
asked of me. Sure, I had some vices, but who doesn't? I
cheated on my income
taxes sometimes, but the government had it coming.
They take too much from
us hard workers! Then I peeked at a little pornography
every now and then.
Surely Jesus would understand. He is a very loving God
and the good I do
must outweigh the bad.
I remember that evangelist that came to our church!
Whew! He spoke on
the damnation of our souls.like that could happen to
any good person. He
said God would never send anyone to Hell. I even
"Amened" him on that point.
Then he said that only we, individually, could do that by
refusing to
repent. A bit heavy on that "holiness stuff" considering
we live in the 21st
century. We are an advanced and intellectual people.
We don't worship idols
of stone, so what could God really care if we give Him
our time on Sundays
and some Wednesdays and live the rest of the time
taking care of ourselves?
Is that really bad? I think not.
I wish the screaming would stop.
Too many people are screaming and I can't think
anymore.
Day 4
Or so I think. At least it makes me feel better to
make these day
breaks for myself.
Wait.there is a pull drawing me upward! Yes! I knew I
would get out of
here. Finally. Someone realized their mistake. This is
the first time in
what seems like an eternity that I am not in pain. I feel
peace again. God
must be near. There is light all around. And a throne.so
big and shining
white. The singing is so beautiful!
I still hear that screaming.
My name is called. God must want to apologize for
this horrible
mistake. I walk up to Him. Should I bow?
I cannot look at His eyes. They are like blue-white
flames of fire.
Beautiful, but so much purity there. Can anyone look at
those eyes and not
feel dread?
I look down and feel such shame. My clothes are so
dirty. Perhaps it
was that awful place I just came from that has done
this. I see those on the
other side of the vast room we are in. Their clothes,
robes really, are so
beautiful. They look white, but not like any white I have
ever seen. Almost
iridescent - they shimmer like diamonds in the sun. The
sheer beauty of
those robes has me captivated. Until I hear His voice.
He calls my name.
I try to look up, but again can't. Suddenly, my life
flashes through
me and I know that God is seeing this scene play out as
well. It is the time
I slandered that man of God who made me so mad. I just
couldn't help myself.
I hear again the words I spoke that day. The judgments
I pronounced.
Next were the days at work and the adult magazines
I would sneak a
peek at.
Then came the way I looked at some people, with
very lustful thoughts.
Who could blame me after seeing those pictures? Was
the Bible serious about
that "looking to lust being the same as doing it"
scripture? Surely not in
our day and age!
Then came the altar calls. There were a lot of those.
All those
preachers pleading with those with hidden sin in their
lives to come and
repent, to turn away from those things that were
separating us from Christ
and start over with Him. There were a lot of those. I saw
them all replayed.
I keep waiting, hoping that I am going to get up and
walk down there. In the
holiness of this room I now stand in, I know that my sin
needed to be
forgiven. But I know I am not going to get up. I never
did.
Frame after frame kept coming up. I tried to stop
it.make my mind see
or think of something else. But they all kept rolling. The
secrets, the
anger, the jealousy, the bitterness. What I thought was
acceptable in my
mortal life I now knew were as unacceptable as God
had always said they were
in His word. Why had I not listened?
Suddenly, fear gripped me again. I began to realize
that in Hell I had
never been in the wrong place. I had lived in deception.
I had believed that
a loving God would accept me, as I was, if I just lived
some of His ways. I
never killed with my hands...though now I knew I had
with my tongue and my
heart. I had never committed adultery with my body, but
I had many times in
my mind and in my heart. I had never verbally rejected
living life as His
child, but in my actions, I had left Him years ago.
I fall down on my face and cry out for mercy. Then
God spoke:
"I created you and had such wonderful plans for you.
Even as you
strayed, I continued to send messengers to you to call
you back to Me. I
wooed you through worship. I tugged at your heart in
your dreams. I called
you in your conscience day and night. But each time I
came, you rejected me.
You listened to the voice that said what you did was
good enough. But your
sin had separated us. You no longer felt my peace or my
conviction. You
blamed others for your struggles but never looked at
your heart.
"I looked at your heart everyday of your life. I
desired to cleanse
you and make you whole again. Restoring to you the joy
of the salvation you
left behind in order to live your way. Your church
attendance and good works
were done to appease the drawing, the conviction you
felt, but you would
never surrender to Me. Now it is too late."
I heard the pain in His voice. Can God cry? Did my
choices really do
this to Him. Hurt Him? Cause Him this much pain? Was it
the life I led or
what I dreaded He was about to say that made Him cry?
Or both?
"Depart from me.." It began to echo through the
room. Heaven had
fallen silent.
I heard the screams again. I felt the darkness
around me again.
Finally, I caught a reflection of the one who was
screaming so loudly.
It was me.
Living for the Call,
Michelle Molina
Through today's devotional, I ask you to search your
heart. Do you
need God to revive you; to cleanse from you any thing
that is staining your
soul? Is there secret sin in your life that you think you
will be able to
slip into heaven with - perhaps you think God will
overlook it considering
all the good you do? Sin is anything that Jesus would
not do - is there
anything in your life that falls into that category? Is your
conscience
replaying things to you now that needs to be under the
blood of Jesus?
1 John 1:9 says that if you will confess you sin, God
is faithful to
cover it under the blood and restore you. Confess and
turn from it. God
waits, in Heaven today, for your response. He is calling
you back to
Himself; back from lukewarm living that will condemn
your soul. He is
calling. How will you answer? Will you have a shining
white robe or will you
be recalling this very moment in heaven with regret?
Return to Him and be
made white again.
"Dear Father, I come to you today in the name of
your Son, Jesus
Christ. I stand in need of forgiveness. I have been living
in sin - living
for myself. I repent and turn away from that today.
Cleanse my soul and make
me pure again. Restore the joy of my salvation and
renew a right spirit
within me. I forsake the wickedness and will not turn to
it again. I am
sorry. I need you to be the Lord and Savior of my life.
Thank you for
cleansing me in the blood of Jesus. Amen."
Your sister in Christ,
Michelle
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